I am not sure if it this what you want, but..http://www.shopwiki.co.uk/l/mojo-cola-chew-flavour
It has been there all along its only other things that cloud our vision and judgement that gives us the illusion that we have lost it for a temporary while. Look a little harder and it will still be there waiting for you to pick up when you feel ready. The only reason I know, I have been there countless times upto the point where you want to throw the towel in. I found this quote whilst stumbling across a trailer for a film about a master sushi chef in Tokyo and I think it fits with all skills and walks of life. I hope it helps buddy and you know where I am "If you dedicate your life to mastering your skill, it is the secret of success and the key to being regarded honourably"Sukiyabashi Jiro, Master Sushi Chef"